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This is where words are bound by soul. 

在心灵的牵动下,文字的袅袅舞姿,尽在其中自我陶醉。散文、诗词、故事,点缀人生的平凡、弥补生活的萧索。


National Geographic News

Monday, April 20, 2009

C'est la vie!

A successful man never conquers alone. You need friends. You need people around you to be at the apex. Alone, the world will come crushing down on your shoulders. With friends, you can climb around it and stand on the world. You can even sing your lungs out, maybe Carpenters' "Top of the World" or ABBA's "The Winner Takes It All".Justify Full
While a friend is someone who is:
faithful,
reassuring,
inspirational,
encouraging,
necessary and
dedicated,

a friend could also be:
fearful,
r
evengeful,
i
nconsiderate,
e
goistic,
n
arcissistic, and
d
elusive.
Alan was very successful with his business which revolved around biochemical synthesis and scientific gadgets and machineries. He had 6 best friends. He was proud of them. He liked mingling around them. He treasured moments with their presence and lamented times of their absence. Doing things without them was like sipping piping hot tomyam soup minus the cili padi a.k.a. the bird's eye chilli - no spice, no thrill. Until the day when they, one after another (fortunately, not altogether doing it at the same time, pity the man if it happens), stop his heart from beating - figuratively speaking, of course. Then, he felt like submerging his head into the simmering tomyam soup.

FRED

"Just asking you to back me up and you just can't do that. What good of you anyway to be my friend?"

"Fred, it is just wrong to cheat in your reports. The science community will know sooner or later. You know that. You must understand, I am helping you."

"Helping my arse! Oh, I know, you are just taking revenge because you lost your girl to me. Is that right? Well, speechless? I knew it all along! You son of a..."

"It's nothing like that. I am mad at you for that, yes, but that's not why..."

"I am not listening to any of your distorted arguments. You make me sick, you know. Now I am off the job and ostracized. Happy?"

"Listen to me..."

"No, YOU listen to me. From now on, you walk your way and I walk mine. Never I want to see your sickening face again in my life."

"Fred..."

Fred didn't turn back. Not even once.

RICHARD

"Hey, buddy, care to spent some time with your best friend?"

"'Course, Richard."

"You see, I am working on a prototype for improved protein fractionation, analysis and characterisation. Word has it that you are currently into this area. Isn't that true?"

"You have the most receptive ears, I reckon. Anyway, yeah. You are not trying to probe into my job, aren't you?"

"Nah, just asking for some professional advices. Our device is more specialized in isolating PGRs, phytohormones, you know, possible jasmonates and stuffs like that. It is specifically programmed for that. I know you are doing enzymo in animal cells. So, no worries. "

"Okay, so what is it you want to know?"

"Oh, there is ......" So, they talked.

2 months later, Richard's team came up with a whole new model which rivals the one that Alan's team was researching. Alan confronted Richard.

"I thought you said you are doing plants. Unless gangliosides, lamin A, lipofuscin and leptin are found in plants. Oh wait, they AREN'T."

"Cool down, man. I just thought of switching project title. No big deal. Sorry if I grabbed your piece but you have so many other potential projects. You are prodigious. No prob in finding new avenues, eh?"

"That's not the point. My team spent so much time and effort and you just came and swept everything off our feet. What the hell are you thinking?"

"Whoa, you said it as if I murder someone."

"Well, nothing less than a robbery, I suppose!"

"Geez, if you are that upset, I say we share the profit I earn. Seven-three? How does that sound?"

"Seven-three? I get the seven while you get the three, now how does THAT sound?" Alan retorted sarcastically.

"Me three? That's like robbing of me!"

"EXACTLY. Now you know how it feels like being robbed, dontcha? It is not about the money. It's about the ethics, the rules of playing the game and most importantly - our friendship. You do realize you are double-crossing me, don't you?"

"I am not using you, oh Lord, I was just asking for opinion and you gave it to me! In your own volition!"

"I told you just because you lied to me."

"As I'd said, we had a change of plan."

"You expect me to believe it?"

"Fine. If you insist on that, then have it your way."

"I can't believe it. You used me and now you pull that stinky face of yours?"

Richard didn't bother to finish the iced tea. Lost of words, Alan only could glare at Richard's silhouette under the dim light. He couldn't touch the apple sherbet. His gut was brimming with anger and disappointment. He needed to cool down. But ice wasn't sufficient. Then somebody called. At first, he was unhappy. Then, he smiled. He had something important. Something so important that he could turn the table around and play it to his advantage. He would lose his friend for this. But that didn't change much seeing that he already lost Richard when he left after the row. Pay back time.


IAN

"Alan, you treacherous thief!" Ian burst into Alan's office.

"Keep your voice down, for god's sake. People are listening."

"Like I give a damn about that! After all you did to me, I would even sing it to the street!"

"What now? What did I do to you?"

"Oh, don't pretend, you piece of shit. BioZen, did that ring a bell?"

"Richard's company."

"Now you remember."

"You lost money?"

"Else why would I be here?!"

"I told you to stop investing on it but you wouldn't listen."

"You said it worth the cash!"

"I said it was but it isn't anymore when Richard's product has technical errors that he couldn't rectify. He lost his customer pool. His company's market value plummeted since." Alan smile inwardly as he said this. He knew there was problems with Richard's product because his own prototype was having some problems as well. The call he received after Richard left that day was from his colleague. His colleague mentioned about some malfunctions of the prototype. That time, he knew what to do.

"You shouldn't have introduce me to this shitty company. Now I am broke." Ian was at the verge of tears.

"Sorry, I..."

"I don't need your bloody sympathy. I will, I swear to god, make your life miserable. I swear!"

Ian stomped out, leaving a disappointed man in his office.


ELAINE

"Hey, Elaine, it has been a long time."

"Alan!" They embraced.

"Let's go for dinner, you are free, right?"

"Let's see, I have to go down to meet my sis. Hmm, my sis could wait. Let's go, Alan."

"At Ferdinand's?"

"Seems like I have nothing on me that you don't know."

When they arrived at Ferdinand's Diner, they dined and chatted. Then, Alan sensed something was wrong after Elaine took a phone call.

"Is everything alright? You look terrible."

"Erm, it's... it's nothing, really. I..." Her eyes were wet.

"You are freaking me out. You can tell me if something's not right. Elaine?"

"It's my fiance. He..."

"Cheated on you?"

"How..." She stared at Alan, her big eyes now swollen.

"Your face kinda tell me everything. If that a-hole doesn't know how to appreciate you, then he doesn't worth your piece of heart. Crying will not do anything to him but it makes you worse."

"Alan..."

"You are my friend, I can't leave you alone when you are not happy."

"Thanks. I think I need to go now. Need some air. Can you drive me to my place?"

"I would do so even you didn't ask."

When they arrived, Elaine gave Alan a peck on his cheek and Alan hugged her tight. Elaine broke of from the embrace and walked towards her front door.

Suddenly, Elaine tripped.

"Are you ok?"

"I guess I sprained my ankle."

"Come, I go up with you."

"Sorry, Alan, for bothering you this much."

"No need for that. Come closer to me so that I could hold you tight."

"Ah..."

"Hurts a lot?"

"Yeah..."

"Come, we do this together and get you on the bed. It is more comfortable for your sore ankle."

"Okay..."

"We do it slowly, if it hurts, tell me to stop."

"Oh..."

"It seems like it's not your first time spraining the ankle, huh?"

She laughed. "How can you tell?"

"The way you walk in your high heels are as if you are uncomfortable. So I venture that you seldom wear them and if you do, you tend to sprain yourself."

"Interesting reasoning. Ouch..."

"We can do this. Come on, only a few more steps. We do this together and we will be fine, okay?" Then, they reached the front door.

"Ah... finally, Alan!"

Panting, Alan nodded.

"Thanks, I am very happy tonight. Thanks for your company. You are wonderful and strong, I am not light, you know."

"You kidding me? Anyway, I am happy too."

"Night."

"You don't want me to help you in?"

"No, thanks. I can manage it. You help me enough."

"Okay then, night."

A few days later, Alan, who's married to Anna, was confronted by her.

"Al, where were you again 3 nights ago?"

"I thought I told you I met my friend and had a drink?"

"What kind of friend exactly?"

"Why are you asking me all these? What's wrong, darling? You are crying."

"Look at this!" She threw a brown envelope onto the desk. Somehow, the envelope looked ominous. Alan took out the photos, examined them with horror.

"I can't believe this. I... She was my friend. My best friend. Elaine, you remember her? I mentioned to you last time."

"I don't care. You two are.... intimate and I never knew it!"

"No, it's not what it appears to be. Listen..." Alan tried to put on his best smile but of no avail.

"THESE PHOTOS ARE RIGHT THERE. CONCRETE AND SOLID! WHAT ELSE YOU COULD DENY?" She bellowed with tears trickling down her red cheeks.

"It's not like that."

"Oh, so you are implying that these photos are made from photoshop or- don't interrupt! - or you have a twin brother that I never knew of? It is not surprising, isn't it? Since you never tell me the whole thing!"

"Ally, please..."

"If the photos are not convincing, then listen to this!"

Ally played a tape that presumably came with the photos.
"...... Come closer to me."
"Ah..."
"Hurts a lot?"
"Yeah..."
"Come, we do this on the bed. It is more comfortable."
"Okay..."
"We do it slowly, if it hurts, tell me to stop."
"Right."
"It seems like it's not your first time, huh?" Elaine's laughter.

PAUSE.

"We come together."
"Ah... Alan!"
Alan's panting.
"Thanks, I am very happy tonight. Thanks for your company. You are wonderful and strong, I am not light, you know.


Alan froze. She taped, cut and stitched up their conversation to MODIFY IT!

"Oh, god..."

"So? Had your tongue tied up by guilt? Can't find any excuses? Is that right?"

"Who sent in this package?"

"Why does it matter? You CHEATED on me."

"Ally, I can explain this. Give me time."

"Give you time? So that you can screw around more?!"

Alan left the house and dialled Elaine's number. It rang on forever. When he was about to hang up, the ringing stopped. He waited with bated breath.

"Alan? I am sorry." The voice from the other end sounded so distant.

"You FRAMED me! WHY?"

"I am so sorry. I had to. I had no choice. I need cash. I owe a lot of money in business. I am sorry."

"Apology can't help much to me, can it? Elaine?"

There was a silent pause.

"Who asked you to do it? "

"Ian."

Her curt, blunt response made Alan stood riveted on the ground. Ian. His words the day he left his office rang in his mind:
I will, I swear to god, make your life miserable. I swear!
"But how can he pay you? I thought the guy is broke."

"He was. But he got lucky somehow and struck the jackpot."

"He asked you to wreck my marriage?"

Silence.

"How much did he pay you?"

"Enough to get me start all over again. Alan, I am so sorry and I know mere apology is of no use. I have to leave now. Goodbye."

"Elaine! Elaine!"

The line went dead. But it would not help either if she stayed on the line. His wife would not forgive him no matter how he explained. Well, who would believe him? No eyewitness. Just him and Elaine. No, wait, plus the mysterious photographer. He bet it must be Ian himself.


NATHAN

"Hello? Who is this?"

"Alan, is me, Nathan!"

"Nathan? Why had you changed your number? I didn't know it was you."

"No time to explain pal. Erm, I just want to say I am sorry. Okay? And just becareful."

"What? Nathan? Nathan?" He hung up.

He had enough apologies. But they couldn't save his marriage last time. Now, he feared something bad was looming over him. Why the sudden apology? Most importantly, what to be careful of?

He had his answers in a couple of days later.

One evening, back from work, he found his patio and mahogany door were tainted with bright, red paint. Something wasn't right. He could make it out at first. Then, a phone call came. An unknown caller.

"Is this Alan Wong Jia Haw?" A muffled voice. Not a good sign.

"Yes."

"Enjoy the red view? You are to clear the debts. I don't have to labour on the details if you fail to comply."

"I am sorry. What debt?"

"The debt Nathan Mok owed!"

"I am not aware of any debts by him. And if he owes you money, why look for me?"

"He fled with one hundred grand. He borrowed from us and he wrote your name as guarantor and you signed it."

"What?! It must be some mistake. I never did anything like that."

"I have the papers and your signature is there. Genuine. I have cross-checked it with your other signatures."

"Cross-checked?"

"I have people working for you in your firm. I know about you. And I also know that you are well-off."

Alan was speechless. He was confused, indignant and betrayed. But he must tend to the matter at hand.

"A hundred grand is a huge sum."

"You have a week." Click.

Alan dialled Nathan's number. Nathan picked up on the tenth ring.

"I thought you will never listen to my calls!"

"So you have met them?" Nathan asked nervously.

"Not face-to-face yet, no. What the hell did you do?"

"I cannot pay them back. I don't have money! You must help me."

"Help you? I am sinking in the mud now, thanks to you!"

"Are you okay?"

"Maybe for now. The next time you heard from me, maybe it will be on the obituary or on the headlines!"

"Don't say that."

"What? Feeling remorseful now? Why did you forge my signature?"

"You are the only person I could think of at that moment. Sorry."

"Sorry won't do any good, will it? I am sick of the word and you people!"

"Help me, Alan, please."

Alan hung up and threw his phone on the couch. What else he could do? If he didn't want to save Derek's ass, he should save his. He didn't have a choice. He hated his friends for betraying him. He hate them for dragging him into the quagmire. He wanted to help them all but instead, they were strangling him.


DEREK

"Hey there, you look like you the whole world owe's you money and losing your your parents at the same time."

"Watch it, buddy."

"Sorry."

"People nowadays love to say sorry like it could save all the troubles, don't they?"

"You look irritable."

"I have a friend who thinks I am not helpful while I am just doing the right thing, and a friend who steals my idea for profit and lies to me at the same time, and a friend who doesn't listen to my advice and when he gets into trouble, he blames it all on me, and friends who needed money and thus would do anything to hurt me and my family."

"Very unfortunate."

"Referring to me for having those so-called friends or to them for having me as their "best" friend?" Alan asked sarcastically.

"Bad time for you, huh?"

"Derek, you are my best pal since primary. Glad to have you as my chum."

"Wow, thanks for the compliment."

"Hey, you still do your writing stuff?"

"Yup, working on a novel. Alan, why don't you spill out all those unfortunate events to me. It is better to get it out than to leave them brewing inside you. Gets too much gas in you when you let them sit in your gut and your will get a loud fart one day."

"Very funny, Derek." So Alan spilled his guts.

Then, months later, Alan found that people on the streets start to stare and point at him. He was bemused. Then, when he walked past the bookstore, he saw it, right at the bestseller's.

"Things You Didn't Know About the Man - Alan Wong.
By Derek Chua C. S."


Derek used his ordeal for his source of income. Without his permission. He didn't bother to ring Derek's phone. He knew he would just listen to more excuses and lies. He was tired of it. He didn't know whom to trust apart from his family. Why friends just can't be just friends?

Maybe he was just overdoing it. It was nothing, right? Derek was just using his own unfortunate encounter to earn for a living. Nothing wrong with it. Oh, nothing wrong with Fred too. He was just trying to get famous by faking the results. Nothing wrong with Richard either. He was also trying to earn more money. Nothing wrong with Ian, Elaine and Nathan too. The only one who was wrong was himself. Yeah, it must be. Alan thought sardonically.

Fred, Richard, Ian, Elaine, Nathan and Derek, their initials spell F-R-I-E-N-D. But are they?

Friends are not supposed to use one another. But that is the point - SUPPOSE. It is not suppose to happen but it COULD. Sometimes, life is not what most of us dream of. If you think things will be good, it could turn out otherwise. It is not pessimism, because -
C'est la vie
!

Sunday, March 15, 2009

冷箭

筹划良久
通宵达旦的煎熬
焚膏继晷的鞭笞
受尽皎月,蟾光的喟叹
受尽旭日,熹微的怜悯
呕心的创作
纸上定形,心中大石的消失,呼
脸,也埋怨主人的遗忘
肌肉,呻诉主人的无情
好啦,都完成了
休憩,平息身心的内战
陡然,嗖!
一支冷箭
惊诧
算盘珠粒全散
计划亏空
日夜孕育的,匿迹
欲泣无泪

临夜的挣扎
书丛中游梭
晨曦的温和
鼻鼾很规律
搜尽纸上宝藏
存入有限脑匣
耗尽数支笔的元气
挫断多少橡皮筋的锐气
玷污无可系数
白纸的清白
吁,搁笔了
忽地,咻!
一支冷箭
墨汁四溅
该蓝的,红了
该得的,失了

冷箭啊,冷箭
你冷,是因为
冷酷无情
还是喜欢冷不防的打招呼

你呀!
还想躲上多时?
你在暗,我在明
你是冷,我可闷得慌啊!
因为怕你不请自来
得守株待兔
但你往往
在我严守时不来
趁我闷而懈时疾冲过来

要不,我们见个面
约定:
有请柬,你拜访
没通联,请靠旁

我没多余箭靶
来迎接你这贵客
你意下如何?

小小的

小小的
毫不起眼的银弹
只需 配以神速
庞然大物
皆应声触地
是霎时间

小小的
微不足道的龟裂
惟有 稍稍撼动
云霄高栋
既无助灰灭
但须臾间

小小的
看似微末的挫折
只消 屡次放矢
昂气之士
也无颜冲刺
却可惜啊!

银弹之疮
膏药所及
龟裂之殇
石砖能砌

只要不致命

挫折之障
内心鼓旗
重整出击
阻碍:
铅墙厚,纸巾薄
草丘矮,泰山高

乃是过眼云烟
前方是志
后方为史
诺大铁闸铜堡
只不过小小
小小的

挫折是痛苦 短暂的
胜利是甘甜 不耐的
挫折而后得胜利
是无尽的满足
是无穷的激励

也许挫折摧倒你、踩尽你、拖曳着你
不要紧
一旦成功,坐着的是你
当垫枕的
就是它
小小的的它

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

雨天的衬托

疲惫的身壳,拖着
阴沉的云海,衬托着
放弃一贯的依赖,引擎的工具
摒弃一向的方便,一切的替劳
啻为求一个能孤独的时候
在百车穿梭的道路上,寻求失去的部分

一开始的慢跑
步伐的沉重
是体力的疲乏?
是身心的累赘?
不晓得

雨水画蒙了镜片
眼镜都花了
俨似不想让这龌龊的世界
尽入我眼帘
脚步的稳重
被积于路边的泥泞
痴痴缠着
或许不让我踏入在前方的大道
也许前进是错误的
也许是我多虑
杞人忧天


配胶轮的铁甲骠骑
披胄的轻骑
路上飒飒而过
冷冷的雨滴
暖暖的汗泉
泠泠的风拂
燠燠的内心
借着雨天的洗涤
散祛心扉的块垒,心头的郁闷

俯首,匝地落叶
斑斓的色彩,
绿的、红的、橙的、黄的、褐的、皂的
点缀着黯淡的石灰砖
仰天,攀天的大厦
交叠的云层
厚的、薄的、白的、暗的、快的、慢的
弥补沉闷的天蓝

无边陲的碧蓝苍穹
眷顾着烦恼多思的我
前边的,不就是我的家吗?
一股的热气,在脚筋里沸腾着

结束的奔驰
雨天的陪伴,是悲感吗?
冷风的热恋,是伤感吗?
心里累积的无名包袱
是昼夜的砥砺所赐
卸下了吗?

家,要到了
但是心,到了吗?

Monday, January 12, 2009

Did you know... ah, never mind... Episode 1 Season 1


Phobias, do you have it?

The word: Dystychiphobia

The fear
Open the newspaper and all you can see are - car crashes, landslides, misfortune, etc. Then suddenly you have this feeling. You didn't dare to board and airplane. You think ships and ferries are like the boat used by Charon to cross River Styx and Acheron in world of Hades. You fear and dread ACCIDENTS. Usually, people with this fear assume the worst will happen while the danger is actually absent or not so serious.


Tell me why, I never wanna hear you say...

Did you notice that when you wet you shirt, it became darker in colour? WHY?

Actually, it is something we learnt in high school. When water is present on the fabric, it refracts and disperse the light travelling to it. Also, the light is scattered when it hits on a wetted surface. Thus, less light is being reflected to our eyes (remember, the colours we see is actually due to reflection of light) and hence, wetted fabric is darker.


You know that one, what's it called again......

When you tie your shoe laces, did you notice the little plastic or metal ends? You know what are they called? Bet you don't know. I don't either. They're called aglets.



Really?! You sure or not...
According to statistics, it is showed during robberies, the people killed the most are ... (let you guess) Not old folks. Not women. Nope, not the shopkeeper either. Huh? The police? Nah.... Ok la, I tell you. They are the ROBBERS themselves. Not joking, dude...


Adapted from:

Saturday, January 10, 2009

The Firm

Bookworm's Sanctum

Fruit of Choice:
The Firm

Plant Responsible:
John Grisham
The Flesh and Gist:

Mitch was one of the top three students in Harvard. He was a law student - with an aptitude in tax-law. He was offered with tempting jobs in New York and Washington. While he was contemplating on which to take, one mysterious firm with unheard of name - the Bendini - lured Mitch with a pay with so many zeroes that Mitch finally knew which job to take.

Despite a basic salary, he was offered with a mortagage for house, a luxurious BMW and many perks. His wife, Abby, was hilarious. They were staying in a crammed apartment and they were not about to turn down an offer that would change their life forever - for the worst. They never suspect anything until one day, an FBI rookie approached Mitch and told him about the ownership of the firm - by Mafia.

Though filled with doubts, Mitch finally believed it as his hired detective, whose job was to get info about the mysterious death of the firm's past employees, was killed and he was tailed and bugged by the firm. 

He was told that the turnover rate in the firm is practically nil. Now he knew why. No one was fired but there were those whose death were suspicious. He was warned by the firm not to contact with the FBI. He pretended to do so while secretly cooperated with the FBI, as well as an associate of the dead detective, to dig up the illegitimate files that would prove the handling of illicit money by the firm. He cooperated with the Bureau on 2 conditions - to get 2 million bucks and getting his brother, Ray, out of prison.

After the running and hiding for months, finally he also escaped from the FBI's surveillance as he had other plans. With the FBI and the mob behind his trail, Mitch escaped to live. But he was too smart and too wealthy for them. Ultimately, he taped his testimony - something he needed to do for months if he participated with the FBI to indict the firm but he was reluctant to do so due to the long time frame - which was 16 hours in length.

He also wired a total of 10 million bucks to his preferred bank. He wired 2 mill for his parents-in-law whom he dislike as they despised his poverty-stricken background back then. Another 1 mill was wired to the associate of the dead detective whom helped him a lot.

In the finale of the book, Abby and Mitch along with Ray lived on the lam, though now much less with fear since the firm was indicted and the FBI left them alone. Their only source of fear was the Mob.

Review:
Like the other books by John Grisham, the plot is full of twists and mysteries as the true identity of the Firm was shrouded in the dark until late in the story. Grisham did a great job of showing how law is used - with good or devilish intent. 

Burnt Sienna

Bookworm's Sanctum

Fruit of choice:
Burnt Sienna

Plant responsible:
David Morrell



The Flesh and Gist:

Chase was a man that had a past tainted with bloodied hands while serving the Marines. After he adamantly quitted the armed force, he forayed into a career that utterly had nothing to do with brute and force - an artist. 

Having a flair for painting, especially those of the theme of landscape, he built his reputation. In the past, he used to take orders from others and the orders - regardless of his will or discretion - were to be executed without questions. Now, he vowed he would never be led by the nose. His pride gradually took form and now, he only drew on his own whim and will. 

Nevertheless, a powerful arms dealer - Bellasar - demanded him to put his talent onto the portraits of his wife of unrivalled beauty. Chase, unsurprisingly, refused to work under orders. Both a man of pride refused to take "no" as an answer and hence, sparked the attrition between the two. Bellasar struck first by demolishing the private enclave of Chase on a remote site and closed down his favourite eatery.

Having lost all of the things his treasured, Chase tried to avenge. His friends, Jeb, asked him to join the CIA to beat Bellasar. Initially, Chase refused to cooperate and wanted to deal with his problem by himself. After weighing the circumstances, he finally gave in. 

With some wits and valour, he got to meet up with Bellasar and agreed to draw the portraits. Chase's ulterior motive was to find evidence of Bellasar's wrongdoing and rescue the damsel in distress - though the damsel - Bellasar's wife - had no idea of her imminent distress. Jeb revealed that everytime Bellasar had his wife painted, she died. Bellasar had 3 wives before Sienna - his current one. 

As Chase managed to get close to Sienna and earned her trust. He also found out Bellasar's big secret in his fortress - biological weapon. However, he didn't inform Sienna about it. However, he had graver things for Sienna. He told Sienna about the ill fate awaiting her. She confirmed Chase's warning when she entered a secret room where the portraits are hung. Along with the portraits were something more chilling - the photographs of a girl that looked like herself. In fact, all the 3 late wives of Bellasar looked the same - looked VERY MUCH LIKE SIENNA. No, they ALL looked the same like the girl in the photos - Christina, Bellasar's sister. Later, Sienna, Chase and Jeb learnt that Christina was a lover of Bellasar, despite their relationship. Christina died after she fell from a balcony of a hotel, allegedly of an accident as she doped too much. They got to know that Christina had a lot of partners besides Bellasar and Bellasar went out of control and he killed her. It seemed that Bellasar wanted to find women who looked like his sister. He treated them like trophies of collection.

Chase took Sienna away from the fortress of Bellasar and encountered resistance from Bellasar throughout their escape. Jeb and CIA couldn't get in touch with Chase and assume that Chase was dead. When CIA caught up with Sienna and Chase - now lovers - their secret makeshift location was found out by Bellasar. Initially, all of them were suspicious. Later, it was learnt that there was a mole in CIA that had connection to Bellasar. 

Finally, Chase and Jeb managed to penetrate Bellasar's fortress and killed him - without the orders of the Agency since Jeb's superior was the mole himself. However, before Bellasar's death, he infected Sienna with a modified small pox virus - ingredient that he intended to use as a bioweapon. Fortunately, Sienna was saved. Chase and Sienna lived in where Sienna's parents had their honeymoon - Siena in Italy.

Review:
The plot is nice and it has lots of suspense and unanswered mysterious earlier in the story, such as the death of wives after Bellasar had them painted and the mole in CIA. Worth reading.

Saturday, January 3, 2009

Shore Reverie

The soles padded with the salted quartz

Towering, is the heavenly blue ocean speckled with tailed ivories

Where beneath it lies the cousin, the Rumbling Waters

The place where the three relatives hold their rendezvous

Away from the bustling, steel-cold forests

The sky, the earth and the waves

Idyllically blended, harbouring the soul of nature

Found nowhere else

Unparalleled

 

Where the footprints left, the strip of soil

The bond of the land and sea

Sometimes, the tie is strong

Then the bond tightened

Up goes the frothy waves, overflowing with warmth and hearth

Or the bond relaxes

The land stretches as far

To reach the receding water

 

The caress of the water

On the lazy sand

Becomes a trove for treasures of intricate designs

The Maker’s unearthly flair for art

Etched on the shells of bivalves

Some are burrowing while others are legacy of senescence

Or perhaps, of unfortunate encounter

 

Some just wish

All the ill memories erased

Like the stretch of sand washed by the lapping sea

By the shore

Changing its face each time

As the waves play tug-of-war

With the gravity and wind

Some just wish

All the cherished moments preserved

                Like the eternal camaraderie of the heaven, earth and sea

                Last from every sunrise to every sundown

                Unscathed by zephyr or gale

                Till the Earth stops turning around

Monday, December 8, 2008

Message in the Zephyr

That night was as starless as the previous night. The void firmament was bespangled with the earthly cacophony of cricket chirps and the lonesome frog croaks. But they did add a little colour to the drab surroundings. It was never too hot or too cold in my room. The cool November zephyr due to the torrential downpour days ago had swept away every bit of heat. No one could turn down a cool, refreshing night. No one could even be insomniac when the night air was blended with the nature’s spray of comfort. That included the regular person like me. Though the breeze had tapped on the window panes noisily while the curtains danced to the nature’s tune with fervour, I didn’t stir. It was just a perfect night for a tight slumber.

Maybe the year end holidays were round the corner. It was like what the Westerners of the Northern Hemisphere called it, what’s the name again, right, the winter holidays. The holiday mood coupled with the soothing night breeze made my bed extra cosy. I thought I could even hibernate on it. It was a dreamless night. Dreamless was good, as uninterrupted sleep was a yearning everyone would want. I was a regular sixth grader. I just sat for an important exam. With the approaching holidays, I couldn’t help but smile even in my sleep. Everything was nice and happy, at least for that moment. As a kid, I thought happiness last longer than the sadness in the world. Naively, I thought even sadness and despair were inevitable they would only come after the happiness was enjoyed first.

It was like riding a bike on a mountain range. As you climb up the mountain, you are getting more and more exalted and happy. You enjoy it. As you go past the peak and start to descend, you are still enjoying the thrill the happiness bring you, only that the feeling starts to get a lot plainer. Still, you are happy. Then, you come to a valley, a stretch of low land. You feel depressed, unlike the feeling while riding up and down the Fun Mountain. On the flat land, there might be occasional trenches and bumps that make you uncomfortable. After the Valley of Despair, you will see another Fun Mountain. Again, you ride up the mountain happily and descend to another Valley of Despair. It is like a cycle. You get to feel a little happy at first. Then the happiness becomes intensified. Later, before sadness strikes, you will get to feel the happiness leaving slowly so that you can adapt to the upcoming despair.

That was what I thought as a kid. It was impossible that before one could finish enjoying happiness, sadness would interrupt. But my belief would be shattered to smithereens soon. Not only that despair would interrupt while a person was enjoying, it would interrupt violently and relentlessly. Despair is rude. It will never wait or take turns. When it wants to come to see you, it comes right away. As it arrives, it won’t stop in front of you or knock before entering. It barges into your heart and knocks you down like a truck running down on you. Hard and unforgiving.

It was when I thought I could sleep on until the next day the phone in the adjacent living room rang. At first, I thought it might be some “oh-sorry-wrong-number” people. The master bedroom door squeaked open. I heard footsteps scurrying. Someone answered the phone. Maybe mum. Then I just slept on. A little while later, the phone rang madly again. I was still thinking of the same reason. Maybe the same caller called again. It happened all the time. When they dialled and was told to reach the wrong person, they thought they might make a mistake by punching the wrong number. Hence, they punched the number again. When they were told, for the second time, to dial the wrong number, it was clear that the number they had in hand was wrong. Then, usually the ringing of the phone would cease. 2 wrong-number calls in a row hence didn’t strike as anything peculiar to me. After my eyelids closed shut for a few more minutes, the phone rang again. This time, mixed feeling of indignation and suspicion began to brew in my gut. Something was wrong. Indignant, because of the ear-piercing phone calls. Suspicious, because of the nonstop ringing. Who would call this late in the night? I dismissed the thought of wrong-number callers. I reached for my glasses at the bed side and turned on the lamp. I squinted due to the sudden bright light. After adjusting to the surroundings, I looked at the clock. It was barely 5 in the morning. Weird. Who would call at this hour? My friends? Couldn’t be.

I strained my ears to listen for any conversations. I heard nothing. I was pretty sure someone picked up the phone. The ringing stopped immediately after it started.  Definitely someone answered it. Then I realized something unusual. When the phone rang for the first time, I heard my parents’ bedroom door made a characteristic squeak, signalling that someone was opening the door. But the 2 subsequent phone calls didn’t follow with the door-opening creak. I knew I wouldn’t miss it because the squeak was quite audible and our room was 3 steps away from the master bedroom. Sensing something was up, I got up. With feline footsteps, trying not to wake my still sleeping brother, I tiptoed to the door. After shutting it quietly behind me, I planned to head to the living room. But a sound made me stood riveted. A sobbing sound. It was somehow unnerving. Somebody crying in the wee hours? It sounds like mum. Something was really wrong. I went to the living room and saw her. Her trembling body was silhouetted against the red lantern light. I tried to say something but words seemed to be stuck at my throat. She raised her head. Her face was carved by rivulets of tears. The eyes were swollen with tears dammed up to the brim. The next thing she said stunned me for a long, long time.

“Have you seen your grandpa?” She asked me while trying to suppress her emotions. We went back to hometown to visit my grandparents just 2 days back.

“Yes.” I answered bluntly. Suddenly, I knew where she was going. I shivered. It couldn’t be. It just couldn’t be. I must be thinking too much. I quickly shook off my assumption.

“Well,” she swallowed hard, mentally preparing how to break the news, the bad news, to me. ”He went away.”

I was frozen. The last 3 words smote me hard on my head with cold water washing down from scalp to toe. It was like I was hit by an ice sledgehammer that instantly melted into frigid water. I tried to remain composed. No. No, it just can’t be right. Just as I expected. But it couldn’t be. But it wasn’t be a joke, right?

She thought I didn’t get it. She repeated, this time without euphemism. “He passed away.” Though I had already got her message the first time, still I felt my heart sank deeper when she reiterated in a more straightforward manner. I held back. I didn’t cry. I shut my eyes and refused to think any of this. I didn’t go to the school that morning for obvious reasons.

I remembered that day as he bade farewell to me. It just didn’t register to me that the farewell would be a long-lasting one. Grandpa was someone I revered and respected. His fatherly looks and the hardworking personality never failed to awe me. Though his visage was etched by the merciless time and hands tattooed with scars and bruises, he still worked diligently by heaving and shouldering anchor-weight sacks and gunny bags filled with goods.

“Eh, I am leaving now. See you in New Year,” he said in a smile. “Bye.”

Bye. That was the last word he said. He was tying his shoe lace then while I was watching the TV programme. At that time, the word didn’t have any other meaning other than a normal way of people bidding farewell. But it meant a whole lot differently after the incident. Bon voyage, but a voyage to another world. If I hugged him before he left for work, or forever, at least I could still let him touch me for the last time. Maybe if I pled him to stay for another night or his car broke down and needed repair, he might still be alright. Maybe. If. These words meant nothing after the worst had happened.

He was driving with his co-driver on the highway. Then they thought something was wrong with the lorry. He stopped by at the roadside and got down to inspect the vehicle. Then disaster struck. A motorcycle suddenly appeared before him and it happened. The last light he saw was that of the bike and the last air he inhaled was that of the highway. Then everything went dark and unconsciousness set in, just like when one was sleeping - only this time it was forever.

We went for the funeral. It was my first time attending to one. The atmosphere was funereal. It was an elegiac moment for everyone. The innocent eyes of the toddlers and grandchildren, who couldn’t grasp the meaning of death and departure, darted doubtfully from one crying adult to another lamenting adult. Ignorance is bliss, they said. Watching the people around you crying and weeping was contagious, especially to a twelve year old who first experienced the meaning of death of a close relative. Those adults who usually lectured you and acted maturely all the time were now broken down into tears. The wailing and bawling went unabated for a long time and I couldn’t help but cried silently. Every time the scene of my grandpa waving goodbye while he was tying his shoe lace re-enacted in my mind, my guts ached and tears began trickling down. Usually, that happened when I tried to sleep. I wept silently and the tears would wash down my face incessantly. I couldn’t believe it. He was just waving to me the other day. His voice was loud and clear. Only days ago he was still alive and vibrant. It was so unreal to me. You heard of people losing their kin and friends on the news or via conversations. Yet, you wouldn’t feel the sorrow but just a sense of sympathy. When people were sad when they lost someone they love and you attempted to console them by telling them that you know how they feel, they would reply that you couldn’t be possibly understand their feeling unless you experienced the same. True. One cannot empathize with another until one has undergone the same ordeal. The feeling of losing someone close to you was really hard to comprehend, much less to convey to another. It was more than just sad and sorrow. It was complicated.

The funeral had lasted for 3 days. So did our tears. I finally accepted the situation. Grandpa had left. He now resided in a different place – in our heart and soul. He would join the ancestors and be the guardian of our family, watching over us. I believe when a person leaves this world, the most important parts of him/her will remain with us – the memories, the love and the warmth. Those are more than enough to keep a person’s existence in our hearts forever, though the tangible physical self was no longer there.

Staring at the same night sky almost a decade later, nothing had changed much. The starless sky and the hidden moon spoke of the same loneliness. Perhaps the croaking and chirping had lessened. The breeze was as cooling. This time, I had a favour for the wind. Message in the zephyr, that's what I called it. Hope he could receive it. I knew he would.

Grandpa, how do you like it there? If you are bored, you can come to my heart. I left a room for you there. Don’t worry, grandma is doing fine. Hey, you have a granddaughter. I bet you will be very happy since you only have grandsons all this while. She is very cute and of course, naughty. Grandma is very happy playing with her. Oh yeah, granduncle, your brother, left us recently. He is very brave in confronting his illness. Though he succumbed at the very end, still he fought with valour. He lost the battle but he defended his pride well. Now you have a companion. Hope you will no longer be lonely. We will take care of grandma. Oh yeah, grandpa? We still love you.

 

Sunday, August 24, 2008

同性恋的鸡

一养鸡场的种公鸡有些老了,场主决定买一只新公鸡配种。年轻的公鸡买来了,趾高气扬地与老种鸡见了面。

老公鸡说:“我知道你瞧不起我。记着,谁都有年轻的时候。

今天咱俩来个赛跑怎么样?如果你嬴了,看见没有?”,老公鸡指指院子里的小母鸡们,“全是你的了”。小公鸡胸有成竹,问:“怎么跑?”老公鸡说:“围房子跑20圈,谁先跑完谁嬴。”

开跑后仅两三圈,小公鸡已领先半圈。至第8圈,小公鸡仅差两米就超老公鸡一圈了。这当口老公鸡一声惨叫,屋内的场主以为来了黄鼠狼,提着猎枪冲出屋来,只见新买的小公鸡紧追老公鸡不放。场主怒火中烧,举起枪一枪便了结了小公鸡。场主气哼哼地往屋里走,自语道:“真他妈倒霉,怎么买的公鸡都是同性恋?打死四只了!


Adapted from http://xiaohua.zol.com.cn

你跟你的母狗

一男子在公园找他的狗,後来发现他的狗正与一位女孩的狗在办事。望著满脸羞红的女孩。

 

男子一脸挑逗的说:像那样的事,我也会做喔!

 

只听那女孩不好意思的说:

 

那…

 

那你就试试看啊。反正那是你家的母狗



Adapted from http://xiaohua.zol.com.cn

妻子为了生孩子

一职员迟到了经理不满地问: "你怎么迟到了!" 职员说: "我妻子为了生孩子折腾了一宿!" 经理信了.

 过了三个星期职员又以同一理由迟到,经理问: "你妻子是一只母兔子?酱快又生。" 职员说: "她是妇产科医生."


Adapted from http://xiaohua.zol.com.cn

脸皮厚到。。。

早晨,你醒来,枕边躺着一只断气的蚊子,旁边有一封遗书:我奋斗了一夜,也没能刺破你的脸皮,它的让我无颜活在这个世上,主啊!请宽恕他吧,我是自杀的.


Adapted from http://xiaohua.zol.com.cn

误会

一对80岁的夫妇想要个孩子。他们去医生那里咨询,医生表示是可能的,并给这对夫妇一个瓶子,让他们采集精子和卵子然后医生来给他们人工授精。第二天,夫妇俩把一个空瓶子还给了医生。医生奇怪的问到:怎么了。老人回答:昨天我们一回家就开始了,我先是用自己的手弄,但没效果,然后我夫人用她的手帮我,也没用,于是她又用她的嘴,后来她手口并用,连牙都用上了,可我就是就是……“就是无法勃起是吗?”医生问到。

 

“不是”老人回答“我就是打不开这个瓶子盖


Adapted from http://xiaohua.zol.com.cn

Marriage

Marriage is not a word. It is a sentence--a life sentence.

 

Marriage is love. Love is blind. Therefore, marriage is an institution for the blind.

 

Marriage is an institution in which a man loses his Bachelor's Degree and the woman gets her Masters.

 

Marriage is a thing which puts a ring on a woman's finger and two under the man's eyes.

 

Marriage certificate is just another word for a work permit.

 

Marriage is not just a having a wife, but also worries and problems inherited forever.

 

Marriage requires a man to prepare 4 types of "rings":

* The Engagement Ring

* The Wedding Ring

* The Suffering

* The Enduring

 

There was a man who said, "I never knew what happiness was until I got married...and then it was too late!"

 

Love is one long sweet dream, and marriage is the alarm clock.

 

They say when a man holds a woman's hand before marriage, it is love; after marriage, it is self-defense.

 

When a newly married man looks happy, we know why. But when a ten-year married man looks happy, we wonder why.

 

There was this lover who said that he would go through hell for her. They got married, and now he is going through hell.


Monosodium glutamate

A noted biologist, who had been studying little green frogs in a swamp, was stumped. The frog population, despite efforts at predator control, was declining at an alarming rate. A chemist at a nearby college came up with a solution: The frogs, due to a chemical change in the swamp water, simply couldn't stay coupled long enough to reproduce successfully. The chemist then brewed up a new adhesive to assist the frogs' togetherness, which included one part sodium. It seems the little green frogs needed some monosodium glue to mate.

Adapted from http://www.ahajokes.com/

Important Doctor Qualities

First year students at Medical School were receiving Their first anatomy class with a real dead human body.

They all gathered around the surgery table with the body covered with a white sheet. The professor started the class by telling them, "In medicine, it is necessary to have two important qualities as a doctor. The first is that you should not be disgusted by anything involving the human body."

 

The Professor pulled back the sheet, stuck his finger in the anus of the corpse, withdrew it and stuck it in his mouth.

 

"Go ahead and do the same thing," he told his students. The students initially freaked out, hesitated for several minutes, but eventually took turns sticking a finger in the anus of the corpse and sucking on it.

 

When everyone finished, the Professor looked at the class and told them, "The second most important quality is observation. I stuck in my middle finger but sucked on my index finger. Now learn to pay attention!"


Adapted from http://www.ahajokes.com/

Universal Grade Change Form 

To     : Professor _______________

From: ____________________

 

I think my grade in your course, ___, should be changed from ___ to ___ for the following reasons:

 

Tick wherever applicable.

__1. The persons who copied my paper made a higher grade than I did.

 

__2. The person whose paper I copied made a higher grade than I did.

 

__3. This course will lower my Grade Point Average and I won't get into:

 __Medical School

__Graduate School

__Dental School

__Fraternity/Sorority

__The Mickey Mouse Club

 

__4. I have to get an A in this course to balance the F in ______.

 

__5. I'll lose my scholarship.

 

__6. I'm on a varsity sports team, and my tutor couldn't find a copy of your exam for me.

 

__7. I didn't come to class and the person whose notes I used did not cover the material asked for on the exam.

 

__8. I studied the basic principles and the exam wanted every little fact.

 

__9. I learned all the facts and definitions but your exams asked about general principles.

 

__10. You are prejudiced against:

 __ Males

__ Blacks

__ Females

__ Whites

__ Minorities

__ Students

__ People

 

__11. If I flunk out of school my father will disinherit me or at least cut my allowance.

 

__12. I was unable to do well in this course because of the following illness:

 __ broken baby finger

__ acute alcoholism

__ pregnancy

__ STD

__ fatherhood

 

__13. You told us to be creative but you didn't tell us exactly how you wanted that done.

 

__14. I was creative and you said I was just shooting the bull.

 

__15. I don't have a reason; I just want a higher grade.

 

__16. The lectures were:

 __ too detailed to pick out important points.

__ not explained in any sufficient detail.

__ your class was far too boring.

__ all jokes and not enough material.

__ all of the above.

 

__17. This course was:

 __too early, I was not awake.

__at lunchtime, I was hungry.

__too late, I was tired.

 

__18. My (dog, cat,bird (ate, wet on, threw up on) my (book, notes, paper) for this course.

 

__19. Other reason: __________________.


Adapted from http://www.ahajokes.com/

Spelling checker

Eye halve a spelling chequer  (I have a spelling checker)

It came with my pea sea (it came with my PC)

It plainly marques four my revue (It plainly marks for my review)

Miss steaks eye kin knot sea. (Mistakes I cannot see)

 

Eye strike a key and type a word (I strike a key and type a word)

And weight four it two say (And wait for it to say)

Weather eye am wrong oar write (whether I am wrong or right)

It shows me strait a weigh. (It shows me straight away)

 

As soon as a mist ache is maid (As soon as a mistake is made)

It nose bee fore two long (it knows before too long)

And eye can put the error rite (And I can put the error right)

Its rear lee ever wrong. (It’s rarely ever wrong)

 

Eye halve run this poem threw it (I have run this poem through it)

I am shore your pleased two no  (I am sure you’re pleased to know)

Its letter perfect in it's weigh (Its  letter perfect in it’s way)

My chequer tolled me sew. (My checker told me so)

 

-- Sauce unknown (Source unknown)

Adapted from http://www.ahajokes.com/


Stupid English

Let's face it

English is a stupid language.

There is no egg in the eggplant

No ham in the hamburger

And neither pine nor apple in the pineapple.

French fries were not invented in France.

 

We sometimes take English for granted

But if we examine its paradoxes we find that

Quicksand takes you down slowly

Boxing rings are square

And a guinea pig is neither from Guinea nor is it a pig.

 

If writers write, how come fingers don't finge?

If the plural of tooth is teeth

Shouldn't the plural of phone booth be phone beeth

If the teacher taught,

Why didn't the preacher praught?

 

If a vegetarian eats vegetables

What the heck does a humanitarian eat!?

Why do people recite at a play

Yet play at a recital?

Park on driveways and

Drive on parkways?

 

You have to marvel at the unique lunacy

Of a language where a house can burn up as

It burns down

And in which you can be filling in a form

By filling it out.

 

English was invented by people, not computers

And it reflects the creativity of the human race

(Which of course isn't a race at all)

 

That is why

When the stars are out they are visible

But when the lights are out they are invisible

And why it is that when I wind up my watch

It starts

But when I wind up this observation,

It ends.


Adapted from http://www.ahajokes.com/